Muling binalikan ng mga netizen ang huling mensahe ni Sparkle artist at social media personality Emman Atienza sa kaniyang Instagram channel, matapos maiulat ang pagpanaw niya nitong Biyernes, Oktubre 24.
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Chineck din ng Balita ang naturang Instagram channel ni Emman na "Naks naman" at nakita ang mga mensahe niya noong Setyembre 1 matapos mag-deactivate ng TikTok account.
Unang ibinahagi ni Emman ang dahilan kung bakit siya nagsimulang mag-post sa TikTok. Aniya, ginamit niya ang platform para maging "little diary" niya.
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Narito ang buong mensahe:
"I started posting on tiktok last year & as exposure thereapy because i was very insecure of my looks and personality for a long time. i wanted to push myself to be authentic & proud. along the way, many of you found me. it's been a great journey <3 not only have i become infinitely more confident, secure, and authentic, i've also met so many amazing people along the way. i gained traction pretty quickly & had almost a million followers too, which is very cool. im so grateful.
"that being said, it's becoming increasingly hard to be authentic and proud over the past few months. don't get me wrong, i can handle hate. ive gotten death threats from DDS everyday, misogynists in my comments telling me im stupid, burner accounts of high school bullies trying to egg me on. none of that has really phased me that much.
"i've always understood that the philippines is a very conservative country & ive tried to do what i can to push back on backwards systems.
"but i feel like the hate has piled up in my head subconsciously. every time i post, i feel excited but also anxious and dreadful knowing there's going to be some hate i'll have to force myself to ignore. i catch myself checking my notifications every few minutes, hyper aware of every little thing about me.
"i never really did social media for money. i did it for fun, self expression, and community. maybe i'd put up with the hate knowing i'd be receiving a paycheck at the end of every month. but my main compensation was always the joy & passion i felt when posting - which has been fading.
"for the past month or two, i've been debating a break. i remembered why i started tiktok: to be authentic & proud. i find myself becoming less proud, more anxious.
"so today i finally decided to deactivate my account :) im not sure when i'll come back. maybe in a few days, maybe a few months, reset my values, & clear my head of the dread. just need to breath a bit & take a break.
"thank you guys for following me! it really means a lot."
Samantala, ang huling post niya sa TikTok ay kamakailan lamang.
Rest in peace, Emman!
